Home Alone

Hmm..it has been a week since left alone in this big house. Counting the minutes and hours goes by is really tiring. Where else to go? Can't even think of any interesting places to visit as my heart keep pounding the word "home".

In this winter season where the daytime become much shorter, going anywhere is not very exciting. When this days will end?? I can't wait to go home.

In fact what I really hope to happen is not happening.

Journey

Yesterday was a congratulation day. Congrats to my friends that has completed their journey in study. It's really true that different people has different journey even at first we are at the same starting line. Quite surprised when the journey of some people that I know did not cross the finish line.

However, insyaAllah mine one will cross the finish line soon as the journey has almost come to the end. Hope Allah will always be with me.

Away

Every time at night whenever I do my work or being in front of my laptop while chatting or surfing the web, I always listen to this Enrique Inglesias's song- Away. I think the lyrics are really meaningful where someone asking for clarification why he/she is being done in that way. As a human we will always wondering of what happen to ourselves and therefore we will keep searching for the answers.

However, there is certain of limits for us to find for that answer. It depends on the subject itself.

I Miss U...

Lately, I'm feeling down but I don't know why. Maybe it's because of something that I wish to say...however I can't really say it. Yes...I really mean it that I damn miss "you".

So grateful..

Alhamdulillah...one of my problems has been solved. Got the letter that I needed and waited for so long...by today. I'm really..really thankful to Allah as He has smoothen the way which I find it so hard to be carry on my shoulder. Now, only need to wait for the process to get back the thing that I supposed to get right on time...(hopefully before mid-Dec). I really can't wait to go back for good even though my heart feels sad to live the place where I am now. I somehow do feel that I belong here.

Now, the most important thing is to finish my last and final job here where my future held on it. Another 3 weeks more to go and after that...InsyaAllah success will always be with me.

Amin.

Sharing is caring...and Caring is loving

Concern or care is the word that is usually used to show anxiety or worry to someone or something that related to the person that is important to us. When we really care about them, we feel that they should share everything about themselves: happiness, sorrow, problems, (hmm...what about money?? Up to you guys.) and pain with us and vice versa. Both of us feel really comfort to each other as we share everything that we think we supposed to share with someone that we care. Who ever that person is parent, siblings, child, friend, boyfriend or girlfriend, once we start sharing something it shows that we do care about that person. Thus, when there is care, there will always be love.

Love.. a magical word that is indescribable but as for me keep sharing and caring will grow love inside our heart. The relation between sharing, caring and love can start in either one of the relation below depends on a person:

• sharing --> caring --> love

e.g: relationship between friends

• love --> caring --> sharing

e.g: relationship between The Creator (Allah) and mankind, husband and wife, parents
and child, boyfriend and girlfriend

• caring --> sharing --> love

e.g: relationship between friends

However, not all people can show their love with carelessness. Some don't even know how to express their love...not because they don't want to..but that's the way they are. In some cases we can find that there are people that do not really care about their selves but care more about the person that they care and this is where the word sacrifice comes.

What if one day we or the other person itself stop sharing everything that both of us usually share?...Will that means no more care between us?...and has the love between us faded? OR when we stop care of each other, will we stop sharing together as well? and will there ever be love? BUT...when the is NO LOVE in the first place there will be NO CARE and NO SHARING.

Therefore it is best to sum up that SHARING IS CARING & CARING IS LOVING.
If we can have this three feelings to human being, no such hatred can rise in this world and as to our Creator those feelings that we have towards Him really showed that we are on the right track to be a person that we are supposed to be.

:)

People Around Us..

Sometimes people come into our life and we know right away that they were meant to be there, they serve some sort of purpose, to teach us a lesson or help figure out who we are or who we want to become.

We never know who those people may be; our roommate, neighbor, long lost friend, lover or even a complete stranger who, when we lock eyes with them we know that very moment that they will affect our life in some profound way. And sometimes things happen to us and at the time they may seem horrible, painful and unfair, but in reflection we realized that without overcoming those obstacles we would have never realized our potential, strength, will power or heart.

Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by mean of good or bad luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of our soul. Without these small test, if they be events, illnesses or relationship, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere. Safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless.

The people we meet who effect our life and the successes and downfalls our experience, they are the ones who create who we are today. Even the bad experiences can be learned from the. Those lessons are the hardest and probably the most important ones.

People come into our life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When we know which one it is, we will know what to do for that person.

When someone is in our life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need we have expressed. They have come to assist us through a difficulty, to provide us with guidance and support, to aid us physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrong doing on our part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force us to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer we sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into our life for a SEASON,because our turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring us an experience of peace or make us laugh. They may teach us something we have never done. They usually give us an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.!

LIFETIME relationships teach us lifetime lessons,things we must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Our job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what we have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of our life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were for a reason, a season or a lifetime. :)

First time ever..

Life and 'first time' are very synonym. There always be a first time in everyone's life and every 'first time' will have its own memories. First time:

• starts walking (when I was 9 months old)
  
• saying the word "mama" or what ever word u called your mum (never ask when)
  
• going to school (at age 6 yrs old)
  
• scolded by the teacher (don't remember...:D)
  
• starts working (age 19 yrs old)
  
• falling in love (well...it was...secret!)
  
• having a child and become a parent (not yet come to this stage..InsyaAllah in future)
  
• lost someone that you loved....etc (in year 1992)
  

What ever the moment of first time was, as time passed by not all of us can hardly remember when it happens. Some will still remember and try to remember but some will harshly ignored it from their life. Well..there must be a reason behind every act that we take.

But having said of all this, now it is my very moment of truth to start blogging seriously first time ever in my life.